Interview Phobia

After sending my resume through JobsDB's 'Quick Apply' button at the end of the job opening, I felt elated. Hopeful, maybe with a tinge of nervousness. I'm applying for my first job and I'm not really sure if I'm going to make it.

I'm been looking for potetial jobs and part time jobs 2 months after graduation. I considered publication, call center, writing gigs... but none of them fit my schedule as a senior college student. There were too many limitations like dorm curfew, location, working hours, class hours, rest hours. I needed money but then, I finally decided to wait until graduation. Fate didn't cooperate.

It was probably because everything has its perfect timing. Do you believe that? Just 2 days after my online application, I received an email from the company, saying that I was being invited for an interview. Mighty great!

But oh my, god. What should I do?

Aside from stage fright, I may also have a phobia of interviews. The last interview I had, I blew off my chances to get in a Computer Science major. The moment the interviewer asked the milliom dollar question, my mind went on auto-pilot and the next thing I knew, I was on my way out of the room. Looking back, I could say, "What the hell was that?"

I'm up for a JOB INTERVIEW. I need this job. I can't mess this up.

So I thought of a sort of mantra to help me fight the fear:

The interview is just a normal conversation between two normal people. I will be asked questions and I wil just have to answer. It's a normal conversation.

That's what I thought. I kept telling myself that it would just be a conversation like others. There's nothing to worry about. Except that I often lose my breath just by standing up and reciting in class. I'm such a loser.

I had 3 days to prepare. .

WANTED: ENGLISH INSTRUCTOR ASSOCIATE

I didn't know that an online English teaching job exists. I thought that online teaching has not yet been done since it was still the time when teaching online outside the classroom has been a topic for debates. Is teaching outside the conventions of a classroom healthy for learning and development or not?

It was almost graduation then and I was looking for a job through online recruitment sites. Since I was a major of Literature so I was browsing through jobs in Editorial, Journalism and Education. I saw this interesting job opening on JobsDB.com.ph about online English teaching. Compared to other job openings of the same nature, the salary is higher and allowed me to choose my preferred shift among morning shift, pm shift and broken shift. No graveyard.

The AM and PM shifts' salary is about the same. However, given the difficulty of being in a broken shift, the salary is P2,0oo-3,000 more. Broken shift is worse than graveyard. It's from 5-9am then you go back to the office from 7-11.

So I was blinded by the salary of this shift's promise, P16,000. Imagine getting that much and I just graduated!

Thus, started my ESL teaching journey. .